Gram... it is so surreal that you are gone. Although you will be greatly missed back at your Earthly home, it is comforting to me to know that you are now spending eternity with Grandpa. You lived a long life surrounded by people that love you. I have learned a lot about you from our family the past few days. You went through your life being selfless and caring. You took care of others and nearing the end, it was hard for you to allow those same people to take care of you. You did not die on April 18th, 2015. You were born again...born into your eternal life. This isn't goodbye, Gram. This is "see you later"! I will miss you here, but I will see you again someday. Give Grandpa a kiss on the cheek for me, okay?
Like you always wrote on my birthday cards...
Lots of Love, and God Bless You.
I love you, Gram.
Mom....I feel so blessed to have had you in my life for 54 years. We've been through a lot together over those years while you had to face life without Dad. What impressed me the most about you over those years was that while you lost the love of your life, you still realized and embraced the love of your family, continuing on with all the traditions of holiday meals and celebrations, putting your own loneliness aside to to enhance the happiness of those around you. What hurts me the most is that in all of those years, I was your "fix-it" guy, no matter what it was, from A-to-Z. All you had to do was mention that something wasn't right and I'd take care of it. And then, your diagnosis of cancer occurred and for the first time, I felt the helplessness of knowing that for the first time, I couldn't "fix it"!
You know...there's an Eagles song called "Hole In the World" in which the chorus lyrics are:
There's a hole in the world tonight
There's a cloud of fear and sorrow
There's a hole in the world tonight
Don't let there be a hole in the world tomorrow
....and some alternate lyrics popped into my head after you left the bounds of earth to be with everyone in Heaven, and they are:
There's a hole in my heart tonight
There's a feeling of pain and sorrow
There's a hole in my heart tonight
There'll always be a hole in my heart tomorrow
Throughout this, I prayed for 3 things: 1)you wouldn't suffer a long painful end of life with cancer, 2) your end of life would be peaceful and 3) I would be there with you....and God answered all three of those prayers!
I love you and miss you dearly already. I only have one question for you: Who's gonna fix the cookie jar when it breaks now?
Today there is a whole in my heart that will NEVER heal. The woman who gave me life and brought me into this world, raised me, kissed my boo boo's, stayed awake by my bed while I was sick, cooked my favorite meals, supported me, stood by my side when others didn't, defended me, understood me and loved me unconditionally was called home by Jesus on 04/19/2015. A STRONGER woman I have never known. She stayed strong right up until she took her last breath on this earth. Her pain and suffering is over and she is in Heaven, reunited with my father, my brother and all her other loved ones that have gone before her. I will miss you Momma more than anyone could ever know. My life will never be the same without you in it, but you will always be with me in my mind, heart and soul. We will always share the bond of mother and son for eternity. I miss you already and love you Momma and I'm so happy that you will enjoy the happiness and peace that is found in Heaven and in the arms of our Heavenly Father. Say "hi" to everyone for me....
